Welcome to March. 
I’m kind of sad that February is over. I kind of wish we could go back to October of 2009. This year has been going by too fast and I haven’t had a chance to catch up. I can’t believe it’s almost spring already. I’m not looking forward to that at all. Spring is my favorite season after fall, but I don’t like spring because it’s like the calm before the storm. In this case the storm is summer. I hate the summer time!! I wish it could be fall all year long.
I’m especially not looking forward to the summer this year because I messed around all winter and didn’t even start my diet. In fact, I’ve probably gained a few pounds. I was supposed to use the winter time to get into shape, but I wasted the opportunity being lazy. I guess I wont be having a great summer again this year. Boo. Another random reason that I don’t like spring is the fact that my neighbor smokes cigars. It’s cool in the winter when my windows are closed, but in the spring the cigar smoke and smell comes right inside my window. Blah! So yeah, happy March. I guess!! 
It’s almost 1 in the morning and look who’s up. Ugh. I need to go see a doctor about my sleeping issues. I don’t know why I can’t sleep properly. It’s weird because when I’m awake I never want to go to sleep, but when I’m asleep I hate to have to get up. I think I was meant to be a night owl or something. I think I need to get a third shift job because staying up until 3 in the morning every night and then getting up at 6:30 every morning for work is no fun. My life is just more fun at night. Well, actually it’s not. But that is the only time I really have to catch up on things that I like to do.
The night time is also great because it’s so quiet. My neighbors aren’t as rowdy after 12 in the morning. Well, at least not until the summer comes. Either way, I really enjoy the time that I have at night to listen to music and draw. Everything is so quiet and peaceful. No one is talking loud, no nosey neighbors peeking out of their faux wood blinds, not a lot of cars driving by… just peaceful.
I think I’m a really unique person. The things that make some girls happy just doesn’t seem to phase me in the least. For instance, if you were to give me $200 and tell me to buy whatever I wanted I would probably buy monkeys, smell goods, books and DVDs. Maybe nail polish too, but that’s about it. I wouldn’t have any desire to buy clothes, shoes or a handbag. Most of the girls that I know would spend their whole $200 on a pair of shoes, a designer purse or a piece of jewelry. Not me!
I really don’t care about fancy shoes, I don’t carry handbags and I hate wearing jewelry. Believe it or not, a $20 stuffed monkey would make me happier than a $1000 purse or necklace. Although, I have to admit that after looking at a few pairs of Stuart Weitzman shoes I could be talked into owning a pair of those.
I’m restarting my diet again on Monday. It seems like I’m always restarting it. I guess it’s because I’ve never really committed to it fully. Or maybe I have, but I’ve just not been able to stand up to the temptation of food and stuff. I was doing pretty good, but I got thrown off by a can of Pringles and some fruit punch juice. Horrible. I made it my business to turn down delicious homemade cakes, but that is what I chose to give in to. It kind of makes no sense. I need stronger willpower.
I would probably be better at this whole dieting thing if I felt that I was doing it right. But it’s hard to tell if I’m not seeing any results. I don’t want to be a slave to the scale either because that’s no good. It’s just frustrating. I was looking at this xenadrine rfa x website and it made me think again about taking diet pills. I probably would if I wasn’t so afraid of them.
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