I think I’m a really unique person. The things that make some girls happy just doesn’t seem to phase me in the least. For instance, if you were to give me $200 and tell me to buy whatever I wanted I would probably buy monkeys, smell goods, books and DVDs. Maybe nail polish too, but that’s about it. I wouldn’t have any desire to buy clothes, shoes or a handbag. Most of the girls that I know would spend their whole $200 on a pair of shoes, a designer purse or a piece of jewelry. Not me!
I really don’t care about fancy shoes, I don’t carry handbags and I hate wearing jewelry. Believe it or not, a $20 stuffed monkey would make me happier than a $1000 purse or necklace. Although, I have to admit that after looking at a few pairs of Stuart Weitzman shoes I could be talked into owning a pair of those.
I’m restarting my diet again on Monday. It seems like I’m always restarting it. I guess it’s because I’ve never really committed to it fully. Or maybe I have, but I’ve just not been able to stand up to the temptation of food and stuff. I was doing pretty good, but I got thrown off by a can of Pringles and some fruit punch juice. Horrible. I made it my business to turn down delicious homemade cakes, but that is what I chose to give in to. It kind of makes no sense. I need stronger willpower.
I would probably be better at this whole dieting thing if I felt that I was doing it right. But it’s hard to tell if I’m not seeing any results. I don’t want to be a slave to the scale either because that’s no good. It’s just frustrating. I was looking at this xenadrine rfa x website and it made me think again about taking diet pills. I probably would if I wasn’t so afraid of them.
I don’t feel good today. My stomach is hurting so bad. It’s almost 12 in the afternoon and I haven’t even eaten anything because my stomach just feels really strange. Last night I ate a veggie and when I woke up this morning it felt like it was still sitting in my stomach. I did put some red onions on it, so maybe that gave me heartburn or something. I’m not sure, but I don’t think I should be feeling my food the next day. Especially since I ate more than 5 hours before I went to sleep, and I doubt lettuce, tomatoes, red onions and cheese on wheat bread would be considered a heavy meal.
I’m getting really tired of my stomach woes. It seems like my body rejects the stupidest things. And I don’t have problems like other people. 
If food doesn’t agree with me it just sits there and causes pain in my stomach and chest. That is so annoying. It’s still not worse than my joint pain and arthritis though, so I guess I should stop complaining.
Good morning. I guess. I’m honestly too tired to feel good about this morning. I got less than an hour of sleep last night. Again. This seems to be a pattern with me as of late. I stay up all night drawing or talking on the phone as if I don’t have to be awake early the next day for work. One day I’ll learn. That is why I’m starting to look my age. I’ve always looked younger than I actually am, but all of these late nights are starting to catch up with me.
I have huge bags under my eyes almost every day and I’m starting to get dark circles under my eyes. This really goes back to what I’m always saying. I really need to better prioritize. There is no reason that I shouldn’t be able to do everything I have to do and want to do and still be in bed no later than midnight. I have to get it together. Who wants bags and dark circles around eyes! Not me, that’s for sure.
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