I’m really disappointed to still be living in New Jersey. I’ve probably stated countless times how much I hate this state. I think it’s definitely one of the worse places to live. LOL maybe I feel that way because it’s the only place I’ve ever lived. Maybe. But I tell you one thing, if someone gave me the opportunity to move from New Jersey I would be on the next thing smoking. I just want to move some place else and start over. It would be great if that place had a lower cost of living than New Jersey which I find to be very expensive.

I would prefer to live some place close to New Jersey, just not in Jersey. Maybe Pennsylvania or Delaware. I wouldn’t even mind moving to some place like Ohio. I’ve heard some good things about Ohio. For a while I even toyed with the notion of moving to North Carolina. I know someone who lives there and she LOVES it. I’ve had a chance to read a little bit about Wilmington NC real estate and that seems like a cool place. The bottom line is that I want out of Jersey! LOL

Right now it’s 4:37a early Sunday morning and I’m sitting here tired, rubbing my eyes like a little baby. I’m so pathetic! I didn’t feel too good earlier so I took a little nap. Now I’m awake looking for something to get into. I want to do some reading but I’m still tired so my eyes are kind of burning. Yesterday was a pretty good day for me. I often have so much on my mind but I feel like I’m starting to get more comfortable with life. I’m not so stressed out about everything anymore. I have so much more faith now that certain things don’t bother me the way they used to.

It’s funny because last night I kept telling my friend that I want to just take a cruise to get away from everything. The truth is the only thing keeping me here is money. Not being financially stable keeps me from branching out as much as I want to. But I’m trying to get focused. I’m going to work on getting healthier and hopefully they’ll be a lot of cruises in my future. For now I’ll just be content and thankful for what I have. My life is far from perfect, but I’m happy that I can at least strive to make it better.

If you haven’t noticed, I’ve been missing in action for a few days now. I’m kind of still M.I.A right now. I’ve been really sick lately and I haven’t been around. I guess I got an impromptu vacation. Unfortunately it wasn’t the kind of vacation that anyone wants. As I’m sitting here feeling so terrible I’m just imagining what it would be like to have an actual vacation. I can’t even remember the last time I had one. Most of my “vacations” involve me being ill and on bed rest. No fun! When do I get to have a vacation that includes the Outer Banks or England! That’s my idea of a great time. Not this!

I’m having a really bad day today guys :[ I’m not feeling well and now all of my family are over at my house making a bunch of noise. I know they’re probably wondering why I’m held up in my room and refusing to come out but I don’t care. I had no idea they would even be coming over today. When you’re not feeling well the last thing you want to deal with is a bunch of noise. I’m just not into it. I wish I could take a vacation by myself and have nothing but peace and quiet. OK, maybe I would take my mom along too because I’m sure she could use some relaxation as well. Anything to get away from this house and this neighborhood. I know Las Vegas travel is usually about partying but I would even go to Las Vegas for a break right about now. Anything is better than being in New Jersey.