OMG I feel so sick! I hate the way that I feel right now. Yesterday was not my day and it seems like today is going to be equally as bad. I was pretty much in the bed sick all day yesterday which is why I’m up at 5:30a blogging. Yesterday I knocked my shoulder out of place again so that was really bothering me a lot. Not only that but I was suffering from really bad nausea and migraines.

I think I need to just get all of these tests done and see what can be done to help me. My quality of life is really suffering because I’m sick all of the time. I’m missing out on so many of the things that I want to do because I’m always incapacitated. Not only that but it sucks being in pain every single day. I try to keep a positive attitude because it definitely could be worse but sometimes I do get down. Hopefully today will be better than yesterday but if not I guess I’ll be in bed all day today as well. I hope everyone else has a great day though!

I’m so exhausted. It’s around 11a and I still haven’t been asleep. I’ve pretty much been up over 24 hours straight. UGH!!! I really didn’t plan on staying up all night but I started to do some cleaning and time just flew right by me. I’ve also had a lot of things on my mind so that has kind of been keeping me awake at night. For a while I was sleeping a lot because I was taking these pain pills that have a sleep aid in them. I would pretty much fall asleep every time I took them. That was getting to be too much so I stopped taking them and have been just dealing with the pain as well as just taking a regular over the counter pain killer.

I planned on going to sleep this morning but my Gram needed me to do her a favor. I was so tired that I really didn’t want to do it but I did. She just came back right now so I can finally get some sleep! Now I’m kind of getting a fifth wind which isn’t good. I’m sure if I force myself to lie down I’ll eventually dose off. I just hope I don’t sleep the whole day away.

My friend and I were on the phone last night talking about a bunch of random things and for some reason the subject of home theft came up. I’m not sure what lead to that but I ended up telling him about two separate occasions when my home was burglarized. I remember feeling so violated when that happened. To this day I still think about it and feel a level of discomfort. I feel that when something like that happens to you it really changes you. It kind of takes your innocence away. For a long time after those incidents occurred I was so afraid to stay in my home alone. I was afraid that the burglar would return and do it again.

The thing about situations like that is you find out what’s really important in life. Suddenly you’re not as worried about your possessions as you are about your safety and protection. I was so happy that I moved from that house several months after those incidents happened. There was no way I would have been at peace living there without having security systems installed. I don’t think I’ll ever forget about those things but I’m no longer afraid which is good.

UGH today is the last day of September. BOOOOO!! No, I don’t like September or October that much… My problem is that every time the 30th hits that means it’s once again time to pay bills. I hate paying bills. My bills are higher most months than my income which means that I have to constantly tap into my savings. I hate that. At the rate I’m tapping I’m going to be all tapped out very soon.

Today my phone/Internet/cable bill is due. That’s due on the 30th of every month. I also have to pay my reseller hosting bill today. That isn’t due until the 1st of every month but if you pay on the day it’s due it says “Overdue” on the payment page and that irks me.

I guess I’ll get around to paying all of that stuff before midnight. I also have to pay for some medicine and personals before the weekend. And then there’s my rent and other living expenses. Those things I usually pay before the 10th of the month. I don’t complain too much because I’m just thankful for everything I have.