This weekend has been a really interesting one. By interesting I mean confusing and strange. It wasn’t a good weekend but it wasn’t necessarily a bad one. Saturday was stressful because I had so much on my mind and then I found out about Bernie’s death in the morning and it made me start thinking about my mom’s situation. I cried so much. I cried for him dying and I cried for my mom living. I’m so thankful that God spared her life. My mom is a very strong follower of God so I guess he just wasn’t ready to take her. He knows I need her more than everything. I don’t think I could live without my mother. I pray God sustains her for many more years. And my heart cries out for Bernie and Isaac’s families. I pray God gets them through this hard time.

I haven’t been online much this week because I’ve been in a lot of pain. The source of my pain is a chipped tooth in the back of my mouth. This tooth has been giving me so much trouble since I chipped it a while ago. I would love to go to the dentist and have it fixed or even pulled but I don’t have the money for that. It really sucks not having insurance coverage. If you have health insurance you probably wouldn’t understand where I’m coming from. But if you’ve never had it, or you’re like me and had it and then lost it then you know it’s hard not to be able to go to the doctor and dentist when you want to. I really need to look around for some cheap health and dental insurance quotes. While I’m at it I should look for a cheap life insurance quote too, because if I don’t get this tooth pulled soon…!!

This week has been really hot and my mom is really suffering. She has a hard time dealing with extreme weather temperatures because of her health issues. Winter is usually a rough time for her because the cold weather causes her to get sick easily. Since she’s had pneumonia before which lead to her having a failing lung she gets sick a lot. As bad as winter may be, Summer is even worse. The heat cause her lungs and heart to work overtime which often results in her getting heart palpitations. If you know me then you know how much I love my mom. I’m constantly worrying about her. I wish that she would consider getting a medical id bracelet to wear when she’s out. It would make me feel a bit better knowing she has that. I haven’t thought about it much in the past, but I’m really considering getting her one now.

Hey guys, how are you today? I hope that you guys had a great weekend. My weekend was pretty lovely. I can’t really complain. The only bad thing that happened is I almost died. I think. I’m still convinced that I’m dying but I haven’t actually had any confirmation of that fact. I think the reason that I feel this way is because I started some new medication recently and I’ve been experiencing some weird side effects. I don’t really want to get into that but I’ve been really worried about the way that I’ve been feeling. I definitely need to see a doctor soon. Besides that I’m really looking forward to having a great week. I hope you guys have one as well.

Did you guys hear about my favorite CSI star Gary Dourdan getting kicked off of the show? I want to cry! I love him so much. His people were trying to make it seem as if he quit, but the CSI people were saying he was let go because of behavior and “other problems”. Then a few days later he gets arrested after falling asleep on the side of the road. In his car they found a host of drugs. He claimed that they weren’t his, but judging by his mugshot I don’t really believe him. I wonder if they’re going to give him a chance to go to a drug treatment center. I think I read somewhere that he’s had problems with drugs in the past. His arrest doesn’t change how I feel about him. He just needs help.

There are so many reasons that women and men gain weight, but I’m prepared to blame my recent weight gain on depression. I’ve been depressed for the past few months and I’ve definitely been gaining weight because of it. That may sound like an excuse but it’s really not. Since I’ve been depressed I’ve been sleeping a lot and unable to get out of bed. Because of that I usually only eat once a day at dinner time. By dinner time I’m so hungry from not eating all day that I eat more than I should. Or I eat the wrong things. And I recently read something about a pill called Orovo detox and they said that weight gain can come from the buildup of toxins in your body. that’s also been a problem for me. Boy, depression effects you in so many ways.

I was looking around online for some glasses for my mom and I keep coming up empty. Her birthday as well as Mother’s Day is coming up soon and she wants me to pay for her eye glass exam and new glasses. The problem is that I can’t find any places that do both for a good price. The places that I did come across are too far. Maybe I should stop looking around online and try looking in the Yellow Pages?

I’m sure there are some local places that she could try. I’m really surprised that I wasn’t able to find much of anything online. I’m so frustrated that I’d pay for her to have Lasik eye surgery right about now so I’ll never have to go through this again. I’m going to keep looking. Maybe I’m searching with the wrong keywords. Hopefully I’ll find something soon. I don’t want to disappoint her.