My friend and I were on the phone last night talking about a bunch of random things and for some reason the subject of home theft came up. I’m not sure what lead to that but I ended up telling him about two separate occasions when my home was burglarized. I remember feeling so violated when that happened. To this day I still think about it and feel a level of discomfort. I feel that when something like that happens to you it really changes you. It kind of takes your innocence away. For a long time after those incidents occurred I was so afraid to stay in my home alone. I was afraid that the burglar would return and do it again.

The thing about situations like that is you find out what’s really important in life. Suddenly you’re not as worried about your possessions as you are about your safety and protection. I was so happy that I moved from that house several months after those incidents happened. There was no way I would have been at peace living there without having security systems installed. I don’t think I’ll ever forget about those things but I’m no longer afraid which is good.

This week has been really hot and my mom is really suffering. She has a hard time dealing with extreme weather temperatures because of her health issues. Winter is usually a rough time for her because the cold weather causes her to get sick easily. Since she’s had pneumonia before which lead to her having a failing lung she gets sick a lot. As bad as winter may be, Summer is even worse. The heat cause her lungs and heart to work overtime which often results in her getting heart palpitations. If you know me then you know how much I love my mom. I’m constantly worrying about her. I wish that she would consider getting a medical id bracelet to wear when she’s out. It would make me feel a bit better knowing she has that. I haven’t thought about it much in the past, but I’m really considering getting her one now.

One of the things that people most look forward to doing during the summer is going to the beach and swimming. As always I wont be doing any swimming this summer. I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned this before but I can’t swim. When my mom was younger she almost drowned so I guess out of fear I’ve never had the desire to learn how to swim either. Well, actually I want to learn I’m just afraid of putting my fears aside and trusting someone to teach me. I definitely think my mom almost drowning has had a huge effect on me. Because she’s deathly afraid of pools and things she never let me near them when I was a child. Now that I’m older I’ve developed the same fear that she has. I’m not even too comfortable being in the water with those inflatable pool floats. I really want to learn how to swim before I have children. I don’t want to pass my fear on to them.