I’m having a really bad day today guys :[ I’m not feeling well and now all of my family are over at my house making a bunch of noise. I know they’re probably wondering why I’m held up in my room and refusing to come out but I don’t care. I had no idea they would even be coming over today. When you’re not feeling well the last thing you want to deal with is a bunch of noise. I’m just not into it. I wish I could take a vacation by myself and have nothing but peace and quiet. OK, maybe I would take my mom along too because I’m sure she could use some relaxation as well. Anything to get away from this house and this neighborhood. I know Las Vegas travel is usually about partying but I would even go to Las Vegas for a break right about now. Anything is better than being in New Jersey.

This weekend has been a really interesting one. By interesting I mean confusing and strange. It wasn’t a good weekend but it wasn’t necessarily a bad one. Saturday was stressful because I had so much on my mind and then I found out about Bernie’s death in the morning and it made me start thinking about my mom’s situation. I cried so much. I cried for him dying and I cried for my mom living. I’m so thankful that God spared her life. My mom is a very strong follower of God so I guess he just wasn’t ready to take her. He knows I need her more than everything. I don’t think I could live without my mother. I pray God sustains her for many more years. And my heart cries out for Bernie and Isaac’s families. I pray God gets them through this hard time.

My friend claims to have a present for me but he still hasn’t sent it. He says that he has some big monkeys for me but he can’t send them until he can find a box that’s big enough. Whatever!!! I am not buying it. You can get a box from almost anywhere. I told him to go to the supermarket and ask them can he have one of the boxes that they’re putting on the trash but he acts as if I’m making this up. Plenty of times we’ve asked the manager of our local supermarket for old boxes and he was happy to give them to us. I think he’s just making up a reason not to send me my gift. He probably doesn’t even have anything for me!! Even if he doesn’t want to get a free box he can go to plenty of stores that sell cardboard boxes. Even the post office sells them! I think he’s just full of it! Hmmph

I have the biggest fear of trucks. That may sound like a crazy thing to fear but it’s the truth. As you’ve probably come to realize I’m afraid of nearly everything in the world, so you can add trucks to that list. I’m afraid of those big trucks that you see on the highway. Not only am I afraid to ride in them but I’m afraid to be on the road next to them or behind them. That’s so funny because my Grandfather used to drive trucks. When I was younger I used to love to get in his truck but I was not too fond of riding in it. I guess it’s always been a fear of mine. I always feel like those big trucks are more likely to crash. I’m not worried about anyone having to call a truck accident lawyer in the event of a crash, I’m more worried about them having to call a coroner! No thank you!

This week has been really hot and my mom is really suffering. She has a hard time dealing with extreme weather temperatures because of her health issues. Winter is usually a rough time for her because the cold weather causes her to get sick easily. Since she’s had pneumonia before which lead to her having a failing lung she gets sick a lot. As bad as winter may be, Summer is even worse. The heat cause her lungs and heart to work overtime which often results in her getting heart palpitations. If you know me then you know how much I love my mom. I’m constantly worrying about her. I wish that she would consider getting a medical id bracelet to wear when she’s out. It would make me feel a bit better knowing she has that. I haven’t thought about it much in the past, but I’m really considering getting her one now.

Last night for dinner I made an amazing ham. I know a lot of people have issues with pork but I don’t care. I love it. My ham was just too amazing to resist. The best part about cooking the ham is that there’s enough left over for today. I can’t wait to have it for lunch or dinner. I think I’ve always been able to cook hams pretty well but ever since I found a few ham recipes online my hams have been more amazing than ever. Even my mother who’s not a fan of ham went back for thirds! LOL. Gram went back a few times as well. I was so happy that they enjoyed my ham. Next time I want to see if I can find some recipes for homemade ham glazes. I’ve always wanted to try making my own. Once I get the hang of the glazes I think I’ll be unstoppable!

Happy belated Father’s Day to all of the REAL fathers out there. That includes mothers who play the part of father. If it weren’t for all of the commercials talking about Father’s Day I honestly wouldn’t even remember that the holiday existed. Unfortunately I’m one of those children who grew up without a father but I’m not at all bitter about it. I know so many people who have both of their parents and they’re not better off than me. My mom has been an awesome mom and dad all of my life. She’s truly a special woman that I love and admire so much. I thank God every day for her and the great job that she did raising me. I love my mommy!!!