*Waves* Hello people. Is there anyone there? LOL. Probably not. It’s 5:55a on this gorgeous Monday morning. Yesterday was not a great day for me emotionally but I’m determined to make today a great day. It might not be easy but it will happen! I’m still having so many internal battles going on and it’s driving me up the wall. I’m definitely feeling like I need to disappear for a while. Maybe I can just find somewhere to go. Or better yet just leave everyone alone for a minute. I need some me time. I feel like almost everyone wants something from me that I can’t give them. I don’t know. I just have so much on my mind. Tonight I almost burned down my house. I would have if it wasn’t for someone online making a comment about making tea. When she said that it dawned on me that I had the kettle on the stove. I was just about to go to sleep at that moment. I’m so thankful for God’s grace.

I’ve been having so much drama with Paypal these past couple of days. First they took money they weren’t supposed to take, then they gave me money they weren’t supposed to give me, then I had 1$ too much, then I had 2$ too little. Gah. WTF is wrong with them. I need to get a bank account fast, because I’m starting not to trust my money with them. They claim they’ll have my account situated by Monday, but we’ll just have to see about that.

Wow, I think this is the longest time I’ve gone without posting all year. I’ve been doing sporadic posts on my other domain, but for the most part I haven’t been wanting to blog at all. I’ll catch up. Basically I stopped blogging because I was going through a lot of stuff and I suddenly became extremely depressed. It’s so weird because depression just comes down on you. I’ve suffered from depression for a very long time and it occasionally makes an appearance. This time was pretty bad because I couldn’t get out of bed for a few days. All I did was cry. LOL. It was weird. At one point I looked down at my finger and my nail was breaking and I got back in bed and cried for 30 minutes. Of course it’s funny now…

As of right now I’m feeling a bit better. I’m still unable to walk and I have a lot of pain, but emotionally I’m in good spirits. Depression sucks because you never know when it’ll come back. I’m just trying to be as happy as I can. Things in my life are OK. My family is OK. My uncle has been staying with us because of some drama he’s going through. I’ll blog about that on my other site. SMH. Our home has become the Holiday Inn. I’ll try to update the site tomorrow. Busy work is always good.  Thanks so much for the comments. I love you guys.

I’m going through so much crap right now, man. There’s some test. Or something. But I can’t even bring myself to blog about any of it. Here or on the other site, because it’s depressing. LOL. I get depressed thinking about it. I don’t want to be one of those people…. Those people that make you want to blow YOUR brains out. SMH. But yeah. Right now, I swear I would die without music. I don’t have anything else. I seriously listen to music all day. Sometimes it makes me happier…. sometimes sadder, but it makes me feel things. I can’t ask for anything better. This is my song of the moment. I live for Alicia and Mariah. It doesn’t get better than them.