I’m having a really bad day today guys :[ I’m not feeling well and now all of my family are over at my house making a bunch of noise. I know they’re probably wondering why I’m held up in my room and refusing to come out but I don’t care. I had no idea they would even be coming over today. When you’re not feeling well the last thing you want to deal with is a bunch of noise. I’m just not into it. I wish I could take a vacation by myself and have nothing but peace and quiet. OK, maybe I would take my mom along too because I’m sure she could use some relaxation as well. Anything to get away from this house and this neighborhood. I know Las Vegas travel is usually about partying but I would even go to Las Vegas for a break right about now. Anything is better than being in New Jersey.

Have you ever tried to lose weight without exercising? I’ve been doing that recently and I have to say that it’s not really going too well for me. My situation is a little different from other people because it’s not that I don’t want to exercise it’s that I can’t. only being able to walk on one foot really limits the kind of exercises that you can do. I would love to get on a treadmill and do a few miles but that’s not really possible at the moment. When I am able to walk again I’m definitely looking into some treadmills. I’ve always wanted one and I think they’re the perfect way to lose weight. For now I have to settle for doing little things that can help me to get in better shape!

This weekend has been a really interesting one. By interesting I mean confusing and strange. It wasn’t a good weekend but it wasn’t necessarily a bad one. Saturday was stressful because I had so much on my mind and then I found out about Bernie’s death in the morning and it made me start thinking about my mom’s situation. I cried so much. I cried for him dying and I cried for my mom living. I’m so thankful that God spared her life. My mom is a very strong follower of God so I guess he just wasn’t ready to take her. He knows I need her more than everything. I don’t think I could live without my mother. I pray God sustains her for many more years. And my heart cries out for Bernie and Isaac’s families. I pray God gets them through this hard time.

I need some money. Seriously. Not just 20$ or even 100$. I need a lot of money. I want to strike it rich! That’s probably not going to happen anytime soon, if at all but it would be nice. I wish I knew a lot about stocks and things of that nature. I would definitely take a gamble and do some investing. To me investing in stocks is a lot better than playing the lottery. I really envy people who have a great mind for business. I’ve always admired people who can take a simple idea and turn it into something that the whole world wants a part of. I even admire people who know a lot about stocks and futures trading. Trust me, I’ve read a lot about the stuff and I still don’t get it! So that’s definitely a cool thing to know about.

My friend claims to have a present for me but he still hasn’t sent it. He says that he has some big monkeys for me but he can’t send them until he can find a box that’s big enough. Whatever!!! I am not buying it. You can get a box from almost anywhere. I told him to go to the supermarket and ask them can he have one of the boxes that they’re putting on the trash but he acts as if I’m making this up. Plenty of times we’ve asked the manager of our local supermarket for old boxes and he was happy to give them to us. I think he’s just making up a reason not to send me my gift. He probably doesn’t even have anything for me!! Even if he doesn’t want to get a free box he can go to plenty of stores that sell cardboard boxes. Even the post office sells them! I think he’s just full of it! Hmmph

Man guys, I am so stressed out right now. This time it has nothing to do with the weather. It seems like all of my complaints revolve around how hot it is! However, today that is not the case. Don’t get me wrong, it’s still hot as you know what, but I’m really not bothered by it. I’ve been looking forward to the rest of the week because it’s only supposed to get up to 90! Woohoo. But yeah, this is not about weather! I’m stressed because my health has been so poor lately. I really wish that I could go on a vacation and just get away from everything for a while. If I had the extra money I would have loved to check out some las vegas hotels. Vegas isn’t really my speed but I would love to vacation there. That’s for sure!

*Waves* Hello people. Is there anyone there? LOL. Probably not. It’s 5:55a on this gorgeous Monday morning. Yesterday was not a great day for me emotionally but I’m determined to make today a great day. It might not be easy but it will happen! I’m still having so many internal battles going on and it’s driving me up the wall. I’m definitely feeling like I need to disappear for a while. Maybe I can just find somewhere to go. Or better yet just leave everyone alone for a minute. I need some me time. I feel like almost everyone wants something from me that I can’t give them. I don’t know. I just have so much on my mind. Tonight I almost burned down my house. I would have if it wasn’t for someone online making a comment about making tea. When she said that it dawned on me that I had the kettle on the stove. I was just about to go to sleep at that moment. I’m so thankful for God’s grace.